01.06.09
Goodbye 2008! Hello 2009!!
I can’t say I’m sad to see you go. Its been a good year in some ways, but in other ways it has brought out the worst in me. I guess when God is trying to purify us… the water must get hot! And all those impurities just rise up to the surface and get exposed! Oh well.
The summer was great. It was so encouraging to go to Dwain and Shannon’s wedding. To see so many familiar faces and to renew long lost friendships. We all got re-connected this year, which also was great. The reunion, while not as well-attended as we hoped, was wonderful. It renewed alot of vision in people and there was alotta love in that room! It did wonders for Artie and I and showed our kids some substance to our stories! I definately want to do that again!
Now, facing 2009, I am trying to look forward (I am doing a 90 day to a new you type of thing and this is sort of what they want you to do!) I’m trying to re-evaluate my priorities and swallow my pride. We are completely in a place of decision… there just hasn’t been enough work here for us and our financial situation is beyond drastic. I’m praying about going back to school, back to New York, whatever. … just need direction, Lord.
Artie runs a gym and that is actually very successful as far as satisfied customers… he is a born motivater and really is gifted at starting things and getting people to work! It hasn’t been quite enough to keep us going yet, but he’s building it up. There has just been one obstacle after another.
But one thing is being made very clear and is also why I wanted to start this blog actually … so that we all know that we’re not alone in our struggles. Some folks are doing alright, I know, but for those of us who are really, really going through it and are experiencing hardships unlike anything we’ve ever been through before, well I think this is a preparation.
One of my friends said it so well. It is like a runner who feels like he is dying inside and just cant go another step… and then… he does — and not only keeps going but finishes another lap in the race. So then he realizes that he is stronger than he thought he was. So when others are in the same place, we will be able to coax them on and encourage them to keep going because we will understand exactly how they feel.
Well, Lord, I am truly going farther than I thought I would… keep me strong, keep me running, don’t let me give up the race!
